Day Six of my pre-op liquid diet. My daily routine is protein shake, hot tea, protein shake, protein shake, broth, protein shake, more hot tea. I am tired, weak, and achy. I feel pain all over, and I’m missing naproxen. It will be six months before I can take naproxen again. In the meantime, I can take Tylenol for the pain. It mostly helps.
I’m hungry but not starving. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself and wish I could have something else. My diet is so limited that I almost can’t stop thinking about food. And because it’s almost Christmas, work is slow, so I have more time to feel sorry for myself.
Because I’m so tired and achy, most of my free time is spent watching TV. Currently I’m binging Grace and Frankie. I also read a little. Surprisingly, when I do go to bed early, I can’t get to sleep.
I’ve lost seven pounds, which is good, I suppose. My clothes don’t fit any differently. I don’t think I look any different.
My insurance approval came in the mail right after I wrote my last post. I still don’t know how much I will have to pay.
Yesterday I was talking to my husband about Christmas, and he said, “I thought we weren’t buying gifts for each other.” I burst out crying, and told me he was only joking. Of course he got me a gift. But I don’t have the emotional strength right now to tolerate those jokes. He felt really bad and hugged me.
I’m going to get through this. It’s almost halfway over. By January 1 my life will have changed completely. I’m taking it one day at a time.